Monday, March 03, 2008

Gods Hug and His gentle nudge to move up!

Revival is coming up at the end of March. Travis Johnson is going to be the speaker. I am very anxious. I am expecting God to big things.

The last few weeks the devil has been really fighting me. Some of the things that have come up I have never battled in my life. And at such a strong force. I am so determined that he is not going to win this battle, but I am at the point of exhaustion. I was given some scripture by a friend...."Commit thy way unto the Lord, trust also in Him and He shall bring it to pass. Ps 37:4"
And the scripture in Jer. 29: 11 has been my life motto, "I know the plans I have for you saith the Lord, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope."

I love the Lord with all my heart and He has brought me so far that I would be a FOOL to let go. Don't get me wrong, I am not going to!!! I am so determined to serve God and gain ground...but we all have the times where we feel low and we either give in to the battle or we search out the determination to gain the strength to go on. Let's just say I am serching for that next surge of determination. (and I am finding it. It is a day by day journey)
I am noticing as I get older and grow in Jesus that the devil never gives up and seems to fight stronger. With some of the battles that have come across my path, here in the last few weeks, I am ashamed to say that their has been dust brushed off some attitudes in my life that shouldn't have been there....also some things I have been careless about. (i.e devotions) I am so glad for a forgiving God. I am also glad for an Abba Father that understands our hurts...and our weird feelings. I was telling the kids in my Jr. Church..that God give us hugs at times. This last week...i was really down, and in my tears I have many times asked God for one of His hugs. I don't mean to bring God to a low humane level...or any disrespect...but sometimes the devil fights me with the fact that "YOUR TALKING TO GOD, HE IS TO BIG AND BUSY TO BOTHERED WITH YOU SILLY EMOTIONAL UNSTABLENESS." But I have come to know, that just as my earthly father cares about my feelings and when I cry he will wrap his arms around me in a hug...why wouldn't my Heavenly Father do the same thing???? Also, I am learning that sometimes he may just hold our hand...just to help us learn that we can stand and we can get thru the battle. I know I am being pretty transparent here. Maybe to much for a blog. But I just wanted to share some of what God is doing for me.

In this upcoming revival... I want to NOT spend the whole time getting everything togather...but rather come with my heart prepared. I am determined to not let the devil, keep me down. That I can truly rest in the promises of the Word. And that my Heavenly Fathers Arms are around me...and where I know I can stand tall...I also can collapse in His arms and know he will hold me tight in the Hug that I need.


Jody J said...

Beautiful post. I think we've all been there. Keep your chin up! :)
Looking forward to being with you guys. I don't know how much I can come, but I'm sure I will some.

Anonymous said...

I don't like to see you down, but your determination is encouraging! The devil knows what things he can use to get us down and he sure seems to fight harder when we are trying to move up spiritually.
I hope your revival goes well. We start one the beginning of April with Mark Cravens and I'm looking forward to it. Love you girl.
- Leah

Regi said...

Prayin' for ya!

Mama said...

Hang in there, Honey. God is bigger than it all.

Jenny said...

Girl! I know what you mean about the fighting...I feel like I've been through it & cannot possibly take one more thing! (It's even worse when you're pregnant!) I'll never forget God wrapping His arms around me when my daddy died. We are His children and He hurts when we hurt, etc. I'm so very glad He's a personal God...and on that note, I'm sobbing again, so I'd better end this. :0)

Leah said...

Great post. God will take us through!!!

Jennifer said...

Hi Janella,

Just want you to know that I think about you often and pray for you too. I know things are hard for you right now, but I also know that God hasn't forgotten about you. Love you lots!