Having a little girl has been the BEST thing that has ever happened to me. I have loved every minute of it!!! When I was a working mom...I had so many dreams and wishes that I wanted to do..but just not enough hours in my days to do it all. I became so overwhelmed and really started to HATE who I was becoming as a mom. I was an anxious ball of nerves and would burst at every upset. I had began praying long before Katelynn was born that MAYBE...just Maybe I could become a stay at home mom. It was with a hopeful heart I listened to Jonathan as he told me I would probably be able to quit work in Oct 2010. Even up to the month of Oct...I was so excited but part of me KNEW something bad was going to happen and I would not be able to quit. Well the time came...and I was able to quit. And somehow something in me began to relax. I don't like to think of myself as a controlling person...BUT when it comes to my own life and family...I want to at least feel I can somewhat "Control" what is happening . And with working...I felt TOTALLY lost. My HEART GOES OUT..to mommy's who WISH beyond anything that they could stay home. I know that feeling!!!! I pray for different mom's that I know that wish they could have the stay at home life.
God has been so good to us...in supplying our wants and our desires...and I am looking even more forward to the fact...that by the end of Summer 2011 with the exception of our house...we will be DEBT FREE!!! God has helped us and is still helping us!